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Monday, December 15, 2008, 10:14 PM

History And Now

Dear viewers, I just wanted to share some experiences what I encountered in life. This is based on a true story. Viewer's description are based on advised, thanks.

Tampines Primary School:

Since I was in Primary 3, I became very bad. I learnt bad things on my own and I'm considered a small gangster. On my birthday around that year, one of my classmates gave me a sharpener as a birthday gift and asked me to write any wishes on a piece of paper. Frankly speaking, I don't know what to write. I did ask her what to write and she said anything. I just wrote: "I Love You". She was angry and she told teacher about it. The teacher was angry why did I learn to write such stuffs, wanted to punish me and sent me to see the Principal. I persisted and got angry. I even begged her not to cause I don't want my parents to find out what troubled I got into. I cried and stared at her. In an angry tone, I used the chair and threw infront of the whiteboard. I was sent to see the Principal. After that, life changed totally. I shop-lifted, stole my parent's money and burned one of a family door's that made me pissed off. I hated that family who always bullied my brothers. We did not get caught.

Tampines Primary School:

Until Primary 5.3, I went into Em2. The whole class was like "Holy" I could said. My character did not change at all. No matter how or what they did, I just be myself. At first, they hated me but sooner or later, they did not give up on me. The whole class decided to change me. Their actions, movements proved and really touched my heart. From that day onwards, I turned over a new leaf. Until Primary 6.9, I went into the last class of Em2. Supposedly, I should went into Em3 but our Vice's Principal gave us a chance and that's why we could entered. All were malays and except 4 chinese included me. I got bullied by them most of the time and one of the chinese girls got mistooken by a matter. Somehow, she hated me, kept pestering my family and bullied me in school. She was a gangster and got gang. When it reached to the results of PSLE, she went into the same secondary school and class as me. That's very unlucky. I did not take any revenge cause I still remembered what my Primary class 5.3 changed me. I became a Christian since Primary 6.

Hai Sing Catholic School:

The nightmare never ended until I did a stupid thing to stop it. I gave her money twice and she stopped it from pestering me for 2 years. (Sec 1 and 2) My form teacher posted me to Prefect since Secondary 2 and I was honoured. At first, I don't wanted to but to think, it was God's plan so I accepted it. The whole class disliked me also and kept bullied me. I never ever scolded them as a prefect and even treated them good but I got no returns in the end. I did not ask for anything either. I just wanted them to be happy. That's all I asked. I wanted to have junior under me all along but it must be senior (Secondary 3) then to have junior. When the juniors joined it, I was elated and waiting for him/her to be my junior as a part of my wish. Until I reached Secondary 3, I beame a senior and I found my junior but after somehow, things went wrong in our misunderstandings. Seriously, I don't know what's the real reason and wrong either. Life had not been good all along. We were having cold war. My wish was dashed. I had a Godbrother who was my neighbour since I stayed at Holland Village when I was born until Primary 1. I moved house to Tampines since I was in Primary 2. We lost contact but until Secondary 1, we kept in touch in Friendster. He took care, loved, doted and etc..., towards me like his younger brother. (treated as real) He even sacrificed his time, quarrelled with his gf and etc..., for the sake of me. I felt bad and guilty. I did not see him for one month due to his NS. I kinda missed him as my "Korkor" so I asked him whether I could meet him after my school at one of those days. He said okay and got his motorbike license not long ago after a week. After my school, I was detained by my discipline master due to my class noisy for about 45 minutes. After that, I went out immediately. I wondered why he was not there yet. Usually, he always very punctual.

Opposite my school, there was an accident. The model, number and etc... I remembered and it looked familiar. It was his motorbike. I used my courage and walked over to see. I was at a loss and saw him lying there with a lot of blood. It pained my heart and I shouted for help and to ask people to call ambulance urgently. On the way to the hospital, his condition couldn't stabled and he held my hand. It seemed like he wanted to tell me something. Seriously, I don't know what was it. I asked him to stop talking and it's going to reach the hospital soon. I was panicked at the same time. *Tears* When it was about to reach within 10 minutes, his heartbeat stopped and his hand let go of mine. My mind and mood was out of control that time. I called him: "Kor" for my last time. *Tears* At that time, prelim and GCE "N" level was near. I became another person.

Was it my fault to cause his death if I did not ask him to meet me or it's fated within life and death? I lost temper and moodless as a position of a senior prefect. My form teacher wanted to meet my parents for a talk and discussion. I was sent to the Mental Hospital for one month probation. (mental case) Under that situation, my studies were affected but still I managed to catch back as what I had to do. After one week I got out from there, his grandmother came to look for me and passed me his diary. I took a look and in my heart, it hurt and I cried deeply. In his diary wrote: "I always loved, cared and regarded for my this younger brother called "Lin Jingliang Markim" since childhood no matter what happened. If anything happened to me, maked sured my grandmother and him must attended my funeral". Even my address was there. After one month plus, his funeral was not held. It really pained my heart and his grandmother. His grandmother knew me too and just the both of us managed his funeral. Mostly, I did all and wanted his grandmother to rest. *Tears*

After that onwards, I can't forget about him and it really took a few years to heal my wounds. Days passed, it turned my life back to normal but the nightmare had not ended yet. Secondary 4 class, almost half the class hated me just because I'm a prefect. I don't know why but I still never forget about my Primary class 5.3 that changed me. Thanks man!~ They bullied, played pranks and etc..., to me but I did not fight back. After GCE "N" level, I decided to give the whole class a surprise and it came from my heart sincerely. I bought sweets for them and placed it in the class (each table) when I reached school early. I got authority to take the class key cause I'm a prefect. When they got into the class after the National anthem and etc..., they were shocked and they thought it was from the form teacher but it's not. One of them saw my table which none and they suspected it's from me. They started to make noise and embarrassed me. Form teacher arrived and she was really good to me after all that year. She found out the truth and told the whole class a story before starting the lesson. She said one phrase which I never ever forget in my whole life. She said: "Do to others what others do to you". (in a good way) She was like lecturing them that Mark treated you so nice that he bought sweets for you guys but you all did not appreciate and bullied him. In my heart, I felt sad. I don't know why. They did not care after the next day. They asked for more so I did the second time. This time, they kept asking me to change flavours. A leopard never change it's spot but it's alright. I just wanted them to leave a good impression in me only even though they did not appreciate for who I am. Graduating time...

ITE College Central Bedok Campus:

Before I went in, I told to myself that to hope all the bad things would go away and the good things to come in my way. It did but there were still conflicts among my classmates until I found this group of best friends. Thanks to them. They were: "David, Bryan and Billy". Thanks for being my best friends for 2 years since Nitec. I never ever forget about you guys deep, deep in my heart. Cheers XD.

As for my Work:

Things went up and down as the real fact and reality shown. Everyone would went through it so I don't have to comment much.

ITE College Central Tampines Campus:

Things went the same as I mentioned. Nothing was smooth at all in human relationships. Everywhere is the same I go.

No matter what happens, I leave it to God to plan for my everything.

The End of my sharings.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008, 1:36 AM

It Touches My Heart For Now And When

Leona Lewis - Run

I'll sing it one last time for you

Then we really have to go

You've been the only thing that's right

In all I've done

And I can barely look at you

But every single time I do

I know we'll make it anywhere

Away from here

> Chorus <

Light up, light up,

As if you have a choice

Even if you cannot hear my voice

I'll be right beside you, dear

Louder, louder

And we'll run for our lives

I can hardly speak, I understand

Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes

Makes it hard not to cry

And as we say our long goodbyes

I nearly do

> Repeat Chorus X1 <

Slower, slower

We don't have time for that

All I want is to find an easier way

To get out of our little heads

Have heart, my dear

We're bound to be afraid

Even if it's just for a few days

Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up

As if you have a choice

Even if you cannot hear my voice

I'll be right beside you, dear

My Biography

My Personality.

Basically, I'm a friendly, sociable, dramatic, approachable and happy-go-lucky person. Lol, it's for you to find out and know more about me. My door are always open for you to be my friends. Cheers and God Bless. XD

Kingdom's of List.

~~Sony E C905~~
~~Jigsaw Puzzle - Horoscope (Glow in the dark)~~
~~Nike Bag~~
~~Nike Shoes~~
~~Police Watch~~
~~SK Jewellery~~
~~Zara Jacket~~
~~Crumpler Bag~~
Prada Sling Bag
~~Fred Perry Shirt~~
~~Fred Perry Shoes~~
~~Fred Perry Polo~~
~~A|X belt~~
~~A|X Shirt~~

Voices from Heart.

Heart of Rememberance.

Hui Ling
Nisha
Wei Ling
Yuki
Alex
Aloysius
Fairuz
Guan Feng
Jonathan
Jun Ping
Keith
Kent
Rion

Heart of Memories.

Lionel Lim (TYB - PA)
Alex Kor (Ex-Neighbour - PA)
Hai Sing Miss Cindy Soh
Hai Sing Mr. Seah
Hai Sing 1T1-4T1 Classmates
Hai Sing Prefectioral Board
Hai Sing Media Club
Hai Sing Badminton Club
ITE Bedok DMD Staffs
ITE Bedok DMD1C/1L
ITE Co-op
ITE Badminton Club
ITE Bridge Club
ITE Community Service Club
ITE Tampines IT Staffs
ITE Tampines IT1D/2Q
ITE Student Council
ITE Community Service Club
MediaCorp TV (TA Dept - GRP A)
Yoshinoya Restaurant (TM)
Giordano Originals (TM)
Action City (MS/Vivo)
Rogers Technologies Inc. (SG)
Pasir Ris Family Service Centre
Hang Ten Enterprises (ELM)
Singprint Company Pte Ltd (SG)
Swensen's Restaurant (FDM)
IBM Singapore Pte Ltd
TA/TA2 Church
James Boo (My Best Cousin)
Leonard Ong (My Best Youngest Cousin)
Aloysius Loh (Normal Friend)
Samy's Family
Sensation Hair Studio
Esprit Liat Tower
Esprit Tampines One
Mark Fairwhale Iluma

Truthful Words.

Staying healthy and happy is the greatest wish to all of my friends. Love and cherish the ones around you and every footprints you left leaves a meaningful mark.

我希望我所有的朋友都能健康快樂. 珍惜身邊所有的人和每個你留下的有意義的曾經.

My Personality.

Kingdom's of List.

Voices from Heart.

Heart of Rememberance.

Highlights.

Specials.

Archives.

Paradise's for Shoppers.

Heart of Memories.

Truthful Words.