Friday, February 27, 2009, 10:47 PM
My Regards To IBM
My Regards To IBM S'PORE
Today was my last day of attachment and I really can't bear to go. Firstly, I wanted to thank one of my colleagues called Christine. Hehe, she was friendly, cheerful and helped me a lot whenever I need. Lol, thanks for the lunch treat yesterday and I'm really grateful to her very much. I wanted to take some photos of my desk, department area and the Company building but was not allowed to during office hours. Haha, what a pity!~ I did say "Goodbye IBM" and wave to the building when I turned my head backwards and headed back home.
Another issue was I had found out the truth from my malay classmate why the NYP malay friends (under attachment) I got to know them that they treated me very coldly before they left the Company. We were once closed but things changed differently after that. I sincerely apologized "Sorry" that I irritated and provoked them by calling them "Sayang" whenever I'm with them. I always wanted to be close with the malay people if they are my friends. What I always heard from others that they love to be closed and called each another "Sayang" which means as a good friend, can be a lover or etc... (form of addressing) I thought as I did and I realised that I'm at fault but they should at least tell me what's the problem went wrong. At least I could change but by not telling me anything and treated me very cold like a stranger/an enemy. It really hurt my heart.
Anyway, it's a history and I won't put it into my heart. Hehe =p. Whenever I do something wrong, I'll admit and try to change. Even I can't change at least I tried and made an effort in it. Sometimes, I always treat others good and nice but I don't think that I'm being appreciated. Lol, it's alright. XD Anyway in my heart, I still regarded you guys as my friends. Hehe, I won't hate others and get angry easily. There's no hatred in me cause mark has a good personality since he was born and it will never ever change. Cheers XD.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009, 10:23 PM
Thoughts
Thoughts
After one week plus, I finally got to see that person. Lol, I was elated although it's just one hour of period. *A thanked you from the bottom of my heart* As 1 month plus passed flies, my attachment will be ending soon on this Friday. (2 more days to go) Although it stated clearly in my logbook which was 1st March 2009 but it's officially on this Friday. No matter what, I'll remember you, IBM Singapore Pte Ltd. Many of my classmates were feeling overjoyed but as for me, I'm not eventually. Firstly, it's not the reason that I can't bear to leave that place but it's what my route are going to take during that one month of holidays before my JPAE (Joint Polytechnic Admission Exercise) posting results would be releasing after obtaining my Higer Nitec in IT around March/April. I feel at a loss as if it's like nowhere to be found trapping in the jungle at a big island. Where's the exit? I really wished to be a student and further my studies. Working is life-long term and I'm not mentally prepared for it due to my illness condition. Nonetheless, I don't want my performance to be affected.
Another news would be: I received a sms from the Sony Ericsson Service Centre. Haha, I'll be collecting my hp earlier or after work tomorrow. I had been waiting for 1 week and 2 days after sending it for repaired. All along, I'm been using a temporary hp which was loaned from them. Hehe, I missed my 8.1 megalpixels hp so much.
Note: Fyi, the 12.1 megapixels Sony Ericsson hp is (coming soon)... I had viewed the advertisement commerical online. Are you resisting to temptation? Haha, just kidding. XD
Wednesday, February 18, 2009, 9:49 PM
Taking One Step At A Time
Taking One Step At A Time
Truthfully ever since my attachment started, things had not been going smoothly. In my point of view, I still did not perform well in anything cause there's nothing much for me to learn and excel inside my department. I shall take one step at a time.
One more week to go before my attachment ends. Frankly speaking, the days are coming to an end soon. What will be the road heading me to? I'm worried and I hope to be enrolled into the Polytechnic for further studies but do I stand a chance? My grades and GPA points were badly done. I did apply and waiting for the results to be posted once I received my Higher Nitec in IT. (around March and April) The hopes are to leave it to my God and I believe He will make plans/ways for me. I'm afraid that I might be unabled to accept the truth and under severe breakdown as it once happened.
Being loneliness is frightening and I feel lonely sometimes. I appreciated to have that someone in my life but that person was too busy with so many stuffs and become lethargic over it. I don't wish to give that person too much burdens. I tried my best to love and care for that person as I could. As long as that person is happy, I'm contented and relieved to hear that. A nice person is hard to come by. Dear fellow friends and blog viewers: When someone really picks up your attraction, don't let it go and don't let regret takes over your life.
Sunday, February 15, 2009, 9:38 PM
Happy One Month Anniversary
As usual on every Sunday, I went to Church with my sister in the morning. Lol, I wanted to take photos of my Church sanctuary after the service but it ended quite late and the next service was coming up. It was invested 11 plus million and it looked beautiful. After my Church programmed, I went to a special place.Check it out below: Especially for that person
Woot!~ Happy One Month Anniversary to you!~ Lol XD. The first we met was having an enjoyable day at Sentosa and you brought me to a special place whereby I did not come across. Hehe, it was my first time there and what a magnificent scenery. I wanted to give thanks to you and I appreciated it gratefully. Although I had lost 3 beloved persons in the past of my stories, that doesn't matter to me anymore cause it's the past already. Right now, that's the reason why I wanted to cherish, love you faithfully and don't want to let you go. I hope you will know and understand deep in your heart. Under the scorching sun, I took many photos (using my hp - 8.1 megapixels) of that place that we wanted to go. What a pity that opportunity did not set for us! Haha, I perspired a lot but I don't want to give up taking the photos halfway and I nearly fainted as the sun was too hot. Lol, I got tanned a bit and thanked God for letting me to fulfill the journey throughout there. It's the thoughts from me given to you and a little sacrifice makes worthwhile. I know that you were disappointed once as there's some inconvenience caused. Although you were not there with me today but you were spiritually with me in my heart. The day view was quite amazing but I wondered what about at night. Perhaps each has its own beauty. We shall go there one day at night, alright? Hehe, it's our agreement. I will never forget the day on 15th January 2009. Thanks for all the memories and let our love walk through together towards the future. Last but not least, I love you very much and no matter what happens, remember that I'm always there for you as I promised you already. >.<
Note: Hope you love the photos that I took especially for you. Enjoy!~ XD
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The End of Destinations!~ I love You. ("V")Saturday, February 14, 2009, 11:37 PM
Valentine's Day
Blogging at 11:40pm - 25 more minutes before the end of Valentine's Day. I'm very happy that I had spent a wonderful Valentine's with that person. Thanks for everything today. From the photo above, I specially created it at my working place (rooftop) on 12 February 2009. (Thursday) I wanted to present it for that someone and hoped that you would liked it. Sorry for ruining the environment. Hehe =p. Secondly, I'm elated and relieved that you loved the surprise and Valentine's gift that I gave it to you. Tomorrow is our 1 month Anniversary and I wanted to wish you later. Cheers XD. Let our love and relationship walk throughout our entire life cause I believe in true love will be everlasting. Lol, let's work hard on it and don't give up on each another. That's what I believed and said from above. Thirdly, I felt happy for that person that got into JC, had so many good/new and old friends around that person. Cherish it, alright? Stay healthy, happy too and I know you will. As for me, in my heart, I'm contented and happy to have you. Hehe, thanks for being there for me. (There You'll Be) I don't ask for more but just hoping to spend more time with you. I'm fully aware that you are having hard times at JC and etc... sometimes but I believe you will make plans for love. I will always pray hard for you in your daily life. God bless that someone from harm and etc... Regarding about others, let's take one step at a time. Most importantly, being happy and having you are my greatest gifts of all. We promised each another many things and so be it. Lastly, you are the one that I really loved most now and everything I did for you deserve the worth. Remember my love for you and remember me, thanks. >.<
Sunday, February 8, 2009, 9:01 PM
Don't Give Up!
In the early morning, I went to Church with my sister. My dad would allowed her to drive us on every Sunday. As usual, my mind just can't stopped thinking of that person. Lol, I'm really crazy in love with that person deeply. Heehee =p. From today onwards, I made up my mind to blog positive posts instead of negatively. Just for your information, if I go through any difficult setbacks, I would prefer to share my feelings to the viewers. Let's take it as an experience in our life. Everyone will have to face it sooner or later. *Smile* During Church, I just can't stopped concentrating but trying hard to. Haha XD. I kept observing my hp whether was there any sms from that person. I don't wish to disturb that person but I'm used to keep in touch already. Haha =D.After my Church programs, I took initative to message that person. Something did happen throughout the whole day. Firstly, I sincerely apologized for letting that person to keep worried and I know you been exhausted with so many matters. It's all my fault and I felt bad for tieing you down. I know that you been trying your very best to be my side whenever I need. Henceforth, I still wanted to thank you with a grateful heart and I appreciated it very much. *Look into that person's eyes with a decent look* Frankly speaking, it's better for me to be honest with you anything cause I really love you. Nonetheless, I don't wish to hide anything from you. Hope if there's any problems/troubles, please share and do let me know. I wanna show my care and love for you. Honestly speaking, I did not give up so I hope you too and I keep you in my prayers daily. Let's face through all trials together in good and bad times. Jia You!~ Jia You!~ Jia You!~ Yong bu yan bai =D.
Lol, waiting for the arrival of Valentine's Day and our 1 month anniversary. (Please come true!~)
Saturday, February 7, 2009, 10:45 PM
A Great Surprised
I thought today was a lonely and bored Saturday again but unexpectedly that person gave me an indeed big surprised. Lol XD. Firstly, I wanted to thank that person so I shall forgave your white lies but don't do that again. In chinese han yu pin yin: "wo hui you xin zhang bing er ruan ni sia dao de". Hehe =p. I had a splendid memories with that person. Frankly speaking, I also hoped that I wouldn't be so demanding but I really wished to spend more time with that person as I know JC wasn't that easy to go through. I just wanted that person to have some relaxing and happy moments in love. Haha, yeah. XD One more week, our one month anniversary and Valentine's is coming, hope that person can make it. It's a very important occasion for the both of us and hope nothing will go wrong. *Worried will be occured* Time for Thoughts:
Sometimes, I was wondering whether my education was very lousy or not. In fact, I'm not good at studies but seriously speaking, I always tried and put in my efforts in my studies but still I couldn't made it. When I was in Em2, I was elated and wanted to work hard to go to Em1 but I'm still stucked in Em2. Worst part was I nearly entered into Em3 when I was going to Primary 6. Though my Ex's-Vice Principal gave me an opportunity to go to Em2 and it's the last class, I also tried and put in my best efforts. As a result, I still ended up in Normal Technical. Why can't I go to Normal academic? Why? I don't have a choice and entered into ITE education. I tried all my ways and best just to hope to go to the Polytechnics but I failed. I wasted one year so I went to work. I thought of not giving up and I tried to go to Higher nitec. My years were wasted. (4 years) I'm not interested in IT courses but other courses doesn't related to the design that I expected so I took a new course which was IT a bit related just to pin the last hope to fulfill my wished to go to the Polytechnics. I'm having my attachment before my graduation in higher nitec and worst was my results were pulled down badly. I got 2 Grades "D" and my GPA points were below than 2. In my whole life of ITE education, I did not ever get Grades "D". I don't even dare to tell and show my parents about my results. I'm really ashamed. In my heart, I cried for several days when I saw my 2nd and 3rd semester results. At most, I got grades A-C during Nitec. What's the cause of it? I did not work hard? I did not put in my efforts? Am I'm the one to be blamed? My final wish and hopes for Diploma were dashed. My dad doesn't wanted to support me to go Private art school. He's having fiancial problems and he kept repremanded me that I know how to waste money but not to earn money. I kept silent but who understood my feelings. *Heart ached* Nobody, I bear all these sufferings alone. I tried my luck and appealed for Polytechnics after my graduation from Nitec (2005) but it failed. It's pointless for me to try this year 2009. My GPA couldn't made it compared to Nitec.
My heart ached whenever I saw other reputation school students, they have good friends around them and their education was excellent. I wished to be like them too. They could excel but why not me? Why? Even I tried my best and put my efforts in it just for the greatest wish in my whole life to purse Diploma, why heaven be so cruel to me? I'm having worse illness conditions already. Why so many things striked on me everytime? I did not give up on every setbacks and I always spare a thought for others. I tried to be a mankind but I'm really weary. Seriously!~ Why? Tell me why? What wrong have I done? My diploma in Visual Communication... *Sorrows with tears* I felt that my studies had gone from bad to worse already. Am I going to work for life? I don't want to... *Tears still dropping with a broken heart*
Friday, February 6, 2009, 10:27 PM
Unlucky Day
*Humpz* Today was quite an unlucky day. As usual, I went for work in the morning. Everyday is the same, no tasks and assignments to be accomplished. In the morning, I switched on my laptop and found out that my LAN (Local area network) connection had no sign of it. My IC's and colleagues were not around today so I'm all alone inside the department. (my area -J/K) I was blurred and I took my laptop to the cloning center. (solutions/problems that laptops were occured) The service person asked me to call 9200. (IBM Service centre) It's at Place 2 building level 1 but for staffs, we just have to call for the convenience if we encounter any problems of our laptops. I made a wasted trip cause I forgot. I used to call the hotline. Sigh!~ When I went back to my office desk, I called the hotline and I guessed the customer service staff was a flippino. Sorry, I don't really understand the way of speaking english but I tried my best to hear what she's talking about. My left-ear was deaf so I'm relying on my right side. It's kinda having some difficulty. She taught me how to solve the problem. I found out that the wire was loose so I pushed a bit in harder. The LAN worked. Sigh!~ I accidentally pressed the wrong button to end the conversation with the service staff. At that time, I said *shunks* in my heart and I felt bad but... I don't have a chance to apologise.After some time, I got back my internet connection. I was relieved already. During lunch, something happened and I was indeed terrified. I bought packed-food at Kopitiam and my eyes started to get blurred vision. I hardly could see and kept rubbing it cause it's kinda irritated. When I was about to cross the main road, a car was heading towards me recklessly. He did honk at me but as a fast reaction, I stepped backwards quite a far distance and the car still knocked onto my left arm. My packed-food flew off. *Clucked!~* A sharp pained went on. The guy came out from his car and asked me whether was I alright and wanted to send me to the hospital. At first, I rejected but he insisted so I agreed. He asked me to walk slowly and held my arms to his car. When I reached at the CHG (Changi General Hospital), he helped me to register and etc... He agreed to pay for my medical fees. I did the scan for my left arm whether would there be any dislocated. Waiting for my report next week. Sigh!~ In my heart, I was thinking of that someone. I'm been missing that person since morning. Sorry to say, I was not myself today so I got fault in that incident although I used the pedestrian crossing.
After settled everything at the hospital, the guy insisted to drive me back to the office cause my stuffs were still there. He said that if there's anything, I may contact him through his name card but I guessed not necessary so I did not take. He's responsibled for it already. Lol, that person messaged me that was having lunch with the school orientation group people at Whitesands food court. At first in my mind, I thought that I don't had the chance/fate to see that person so I sighed with a sad feeling but I still tried my luck. When I reached Whitesands. I saw and passed-by that person but that person did not see me so I called that person quite a short-distance away just to inform that person. Haha XD. I felt sad that I can't get close with that person and that person left less than 10 minutes. *Heart ached* After I reached home, the worst part came. I kept thinking and missing that person. My heart relapsed until very pain which was unbearable and I was unconscious after some time. I woke up around 10pm plus which was not long ago. What an unlucky day!~ It's alright for me to suffer alone cause I don't want that person to get worried. In my heart, I just wanted that person to be happy and I will feel the same.
Hope that someone enjoyed the final orientation and had fun although I know that person was shagged throughout the whole orientation. Deep in my heart, I really cared about that person of everything. That's called my true love and feelings for that person. I know that person will know my thoughts. (Hao yi) =D
P/s: If you really love someone, you would want him/her to be healthy, happy and show concern for his/her everything. Hehe =p.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009, 9:28 PM
Boring Tuesday
Today was a boring Tuesday. Sigh!~ As usual, I went to work at the office. I had no tasks to do the whole day. I thought of finding stuffs to do. I searched the reports for my IC, reading news online, checked a lot of english words definition and did something for that someone. Hehe =p. Throughout the whole day, I'm been missing that person badly. Sigh!~ With the bored feeling, time passed very slowed. We still kept in touch by sms but the feeling was not real though. I know that person was really exhausted for the 2nd day of orientation. As it goes, I'm been praying hard and kept thinking of that person the whole day. I hope that person can go through for the remaining days. ^^ Around 5pm, I went to the rooftop Place 2 of IBM building to slack there's nothing for me to do. I took a few photos of myself and did msg that person. After I went back to my desk around 5pm plus, my heart relapsed until badly that I don't have the strength to move. *Seriously* I'm been lying on my desk to bear with the pain and rest for about 1hr. Around 6pm plus, that person called me. I was so happy but don't want to make that person to worry so I tried to remain calm while chatting with that person. That person was tired already and I wanted that person to have more rest. Yeah!~ =D
Monday, February 2, 2009, 8:23 PM
Heart Aches
As usual, I went to work this morning. Whenever I woke up, the first thing was to message that person. Hehe =p. It's very sweet and nice to receive someone's message you love. It was that someone's first day of school. (orientation for the whole week) When I reached at my office desk, my mind just couldn't stopped thinking of that person. Haha XD. I checked my e-mails in the lotus notes, read news online and searched the reports for my IC. #Part 1
During lunch time, that person msged me. I was elated and got that kind of curious feeling to see how's that someone's school looked liked. Whenever my heart followed something, I would wanted to go and do. Lol XD. I took a taxi down to that school and I: "Woah!~". It was cool and I did not dare to go in. I did msg the person but I did not think so much. Sorry if I did something without thinking. I just wanted and wished to see that someone before going back to work. I did not have my lunch and I saw one malay lady teacher came out from the school and I just approached her for help. She was very friendly and helpful. She said that she knew one of the captains in the orientation and called him. I did not expect the captain would announce that someone's name at the whole presence of the hall. I thought he would approached that someone to be informed. I did not hear but the teacher told me and she was kindly told me to wait for that someone near the side gate. In my heart, I started to get panicked and nervous. I kept wondering if that someone would be angry with me or not so I messaged that someone that I'm that's someone related. I made the first move and I couldn't turned back already. In my heart, I just felt guilty and ached. I hoped that someone would not be angry with me. I apologized to that someone a lot of times through sms. Finally, I made a move first as I don't want to drag it any longer.
#Part 2
I wanted that someone to concentrate as what that someone was doing. In my heart, I still felt bad though. *Sigh!~ and hope that someone would forgave me* I went to take a taxi way back to my office and on the way, that someone msged me whether do I still wanted to wait. Out of a sudden, I was overjoyed and I thought that someone forgave me already. I told the uncle to U-turn back. Haha XD. I still waited for that someone. Although we met for awhile but it's worth the wait and wanted that someone to know that I really love that person. I know what I did was unexpected but I do hope because of this reason above, you would forgive me and I know you will. Thanks alot. =D My heart felt very pained and it's getting stronger after I reached my office desk. I couldn't stood it and I informed my IC immediately.
#Part 3
She allowed me to go back home and rest as she understood my condition well. I felt touched but I don't want that someone to worry anymore as I had caused the troubled already but still I messaged that someone as I promised. On the way back home, I'm feeling weak at Singapore Expo mrt station and the pain was still going on. I can't move. I walked slowly and rest properly at the bench. In my heart, I just kept missing of that person very much. My next destination was resting for 45 minutes at Tanah Merah Interchange mrt station after I had left the office building. Until 5:30pm, that someone messaged me and I'm so happy that that someone reached home safely. I know that that someone was exhausted throughout the whole day since early morning and I wanted that person to have a good rest though it's short. No matter what, please have more rest alright. As I'm blogging this post, I hope there's no offence for that someone but wanted that person to know I really love... Lol, *ahem* *ahem* very, very much. =D. Jc is just a beginning journey for you but I hope that you don't get stress and remember I'm always there for you.
Singing: "I'll promise you, I'm always there"...~ Hehe =p.
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