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Sunday, May 31, 2009, 1:16 AM
Feelings
Feelings Working is really, really not easy. These few weeks, I realised that I'm not happy working at all. Maybe the problem does lie in me, maybe not. Frankly speaking, I had no idea. I preferred a few of my colleagues that were having fun and talking crapz with me. As for the rest when it comes to work, it's true to be serious but I did not mean that they doesn't want to have fun. Most of my colleagues I believe they are very nice, friendly and warm in my heart but somehow honestly speaking it's not that I'm sensitive or etc..., I can feel that one or two of them disliked me. One of my colleague told me why should I mind whether they liked or disliked me? We worked for a living, money and experience. Everywhere you go was the same. It's true but I don't want to face their awful face infront of me. The feelings are terrible I can tell you and you wouldn't know anything can happen. What I wish to have a good human relationship the people around me. Hehe, if I really can't do anything about it, I just leave it. From today onwards, (1:39am), I'll change for the better. =] Friday, May 29, 2009, 12:08 AM
More than words...
True thoughts from the bottom of my heart:Life is precious, cherish it. When something strikes in you, you will tend to regret how life is important. Life has one only, treasure it. When life was given, take care of your body and maintain it with a good lifestyle. Family and friends are important, so do God/own religion. You are not alone, because you have God. Even thousands of people hate and wanted you to die, God doesn't instead he loves you. When a person left a few months time of living, he/she will do whatever he/she wants, but he/she doesn't know that how important a life is when he/she was normal at that time. There are obstacles, setbacks and unhappiness we will meet in our life everyday but have we ever thought of over-coming it and be positive-thinking? Some people can but some people can't. Why? Ask yourself these questions? 1) What kind of person am I? 2) Why am I so weak? 3) What emotions do I have? 4) Should I seek my family or friends for opinion or solution to it? When a person is down, the most important is to hope someone to shower with love, care and concern. When a person is alone, no matter he/she cries, we also hope for the same as above. We are humans and we have feelings even compassion. We do feel lonely and we need someone be there. Who? 1) Family 2) Friends 3) Lovers But if they are not around, how? God? Yes but he/she really cries alone but none of the above mentioned was there by his/her side. How? Call them? Ask yourself. Thursday, May 21, 2009, 10:12 PM
Graduation Ceremony 2009
Lol, I was graduated from ITE at last when I was hoping for it during 2007. Finally, I'd obtained my Higher nitec in IT. It was an enjoyable day and I missed my Class Advisor so so much. Thanks Miss Aznijah for the guidance, thoughts, concerned and etc... towards me these 2 years. Hehe, I'm touched and really appreicated so much. Hoped you loved the small token of gift I prepared it for you. You were the best malay Class Advisor I ever had and met. Lol, give all thanks to God and hope for the future will be a better one. Although I can't go to the Polytechnic, I wanted to wish my friends all the best in their endeavours. As for me, I see how it goes. I was reminded the past and all leaded the same thing. When I saw them at the registration area today, a few of my malay classmates gave me a cold look. I knew they disliked/hated me. I don't know what's the main reason. Perhaps it's the rumours of my attachment grades or etc... The same goes for the attachment malay friends. A misunderstanding caused of it. At my current job, two of my malay colleagues disliked me. They gave me a weird look and treated me coldly at times. I was troubled at times but in my heart, I'm not trying to please anyone and all the people around me. I really wanted to be nice to the people around me as this is my natural personality. Izzit so hard? At last, I did not give up as I really wanted to be a kind soul. *speak from the bottom of my heart and action shall be proved* I do cherish... =] 1:11 AM
I had not been sleeping well lately and been having headaches several times during work. Sigh!~ I noticed 2-3 seniors disliked me maybe it's personal or etc... I have no idea but it's very obvious for me to know. When I went for the operation training, the manager told me about a few seniors commented about me after TM1 was opened. They said I'm slowed. Perhaps they don't know about my condition well as in "Young Parkinson's disease" or their opinion in my performance. I admitted it's the fact as it relapsed sometimes. I started to feel the creep. I'm not afraid but I'm sad indeed to face all these unrelevant stuffs again. Although many people told me no matter where you go, it's the same. It's true and I just wanted to settle down permanently. Izzit it so hard? =[ Mostly of our colleagues are nice, friendly, approachable, helpful and etc... but for those who disliked me, I don't know what I had done wrong to offend or irritate. My mood at work was low at times. It shouldn't affect me but I'm trying, trying very hard and best to perform well at work. I did check my sales performance whenever I can. I done my part and I just wanted to have good terms/relationships with my colleagues. Izzit so hard once again? God, tell me................... When can I have a smooth sailing in life to reach the destination? I really want to see you, need your console and etc... =[ =.[ =..[ =...[ *screaming and shouting loud to the sky/sea*Sunday, May 17, 2009, 11:07 PM
This time, I felt very, very lethargic. I had not been feeling happy for the past 2 weeks. I thought working in the outlet would be happy as to feel being disliked by others due to can be any reasons or personal affairs would affect my performance. It's not worth it and as long as I done my best for it, it's the satisfaction for me. I can't do anything to make it stop. Thoughts: Birthday this year wasn't a good one as I did not expect the outcome. I wanted to say a few sentences about my feelings. As I wrote, I'm touched and felt sour in my heart at the same time. *Tears* Firstly, I wanted to thank my colleague "Bell" for spending her own efforts and time making the Birthday card for me and got from the IC's and colleagues wishes. Secondly, I wanted to thank my sister for the understanding, observant and concerned in my everything. Thirdly, I wanted to thank my mum for visiting me at my working outlet during her off day and went to buy my Birthday cake on last Friday. Fourth, I wanted to thank Aloysius for spending his efforts and time in playing the song "Run of Leona Lewis" using his piano. That's amazing!~ Lastly, I wanted to wish everyone happy and healthy in my Birthday wish every year. God bless you all. =...] Sometimes, I felt that my life was very hard to go through since young. God pulled me through a lot, a lot of tribulations. I thanked him and without Him, I can't survived till now. My dreamz gone, my health was worst, my family hardly had no time for me, busy and having a lot of difficulties, my birthday was not the complete one among all years I went through, my work under severe stressed and facing human relationship problems and love had made me meaningless. T.T What I know is to work, work, work and work. Nothing else. 34 more minutes to my Birthday. Happy Birthday to mark. = Friday, May 15, 2009, 12:36 AM
As Usual
As usual, I'm busy working and days passed flies. 3 more days to go before my 22nd Birthday. My parents had decided to go for a short holiday trip at KL on this Saturday until the actual day of my Birthday. Sigh!~ I'm working full shift later as there's no celebration. A lonely 22nd Birthday to spend. By the way, I don't ask for a good one this year. *Numb* Was indeed sad though... Monday, May 11, 2009, 1:30 AM
22nd Birthday Wish
Sometimes, I'm not happy during working. Sigh!~ I'm acting happy infront of the customers. Hmm... my birthday is coming in one week's time. Will it be a happy one? If it's not, a simple one will be contented. =Saturday, May 9, 2009, 12:18 AM
Working
I'm really lethargic working, felt lonely after work and during my off day. God, tell me when can I meet you? Working is a good experience but facing with a lot of challenges inside it isn't that easy. Frankly speaking, I really love working in my outlet especially serving the customers but that's for sure that I'll meet those fussy and unreasonable ones one day. Hehe, I did and after somehow I don't really put that into my heart. Most of my colleagues were nice and friendly but after some time of my observation, a few of them doesn't seemed to like me. I don't know what's the reason but as long as I did my best for my work, I felt contented enough and I don't ask for more. Most importantly, I'll still maintain my smile always even though I'm not happy inside my heart as it's my natural personality. Lol, I just wanted to work to gain more experience, be happy during working, having good terms with my colleagues and be a well-orientated sales consultant to give my customers an excellent service. That's all I ask. =]Tuesday, May 5, 2009, 12:21 AM
Shagged
Woah!~ It's time for me to update my blog. Haha, as usual - I'd been working for 5 days full shift and finally got an off day yesterday. Hehe, 2 days to prepare before the opening, the first day of opening and the next 2 days shortage of manpower. Lol XD. Time passed flies. Well, it's gonna be a brand new week and day for me starting from today. Keep it up!~ XD |
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